And Then …

January 5, 2021 I was beginning a 21-day Manifestation Challenge with Mike Dooley,  While my vision/my manifestation, was, “to be a vibrant, prosperous, inspirer,” I knew if I didn’t heal my barriers that have traditionally blocked my success, I would not achieve this goal.

And then…I started opening myself up to the power of manifestation. Manifestation occurs when you state a clear desire and put energy around making it happen.  You must state it out loud so The Universe/God hears you.  You must also state it concisely and write it down.  And then, keep it in your awareness all the time.  Know this though, you do not get to sit by and wait for things to happen.  You MUST take action and participate with the energy of the Universe.  See my blog for more detail.

My first manifestation was to determine my barriers.

Where was I stuck and how was I going to get “unstuck?”

I knew two of the biggest ones.  Lack of true, deep, self-love as well as a nearly 50-year sugar/eating addiction.  Certainly, they’re intertwined, with deep roots.  And, it turns out I had another barrier, sharing this blog!  It’s taken me more than a week to write something that would ordinarily take a morning.  More on that as we progress…

And then…I started to take action and watch for those the answers to my barriers and direction through my manifestations to take shape.

And then, I was approached by my coach Sandy,, Did I want to do a 2-hour meditation with him on finding where I’m stuck?  It was a new methodology he was learning.

Seriously??  Seriously!!

I’ve done 3 of them.  Through one of the meditations, I realized I’ve never been able to see myself in the future.  I couldn’t manifest my goals if I couldn’t see forward!  And in the meditation, I actually met my 75-year-old me; I was able to see and interact with myself as an older, and wiser, “ME!”  I was ecstatic but also quite peaceful.  It seemed so natural now to embrace my older self.  Shit, if I could grow so much in 2 months, there’s no telling who I’ll be in 14 years!!!

And then, as I discussed the meditation with my friend Helle, she suggested I watch Peace, Love and Misunderstanding, where the heroine, Jane Fonda, is on her way to 80 or so, and plays a strong, hippie-type woman.  Jane’s character was exactly the ME I met in my meditation!

And then, I took a course on Healing Trauma through a healthcare practitioner I’d been led to a year before, Dr. Keesha Ewers,  We can experience trauma at any age.  One often thinks of childhood trauma though, which can be as a result of terrible abuse, or simply from an unaware, but well-meaning parent.  We ALL experience trauma, no child is absent from it, because the child is always looking at every experience it has through such young eyes.  Through that lens, we make meaning out of the occurrence.  Varying factors determine the depth of the resulting wound and unless we question the meaning, we typically carry it with us forever.  I was both dismayed and elated when I learned when there is wounding between 6-18 months, like I’d experienced, one can be afraid of getting older.

I literally laughed at how everything is SO connected!  A helpful mantra from that module was to keep reminding myself, “I am of the nature to grow old.  There is no way to escape growing older.”

And then, I met an Executive Coach, speaker and author, Libby Gill, through the local meeting of The National Speaker’s Association.  She inspired me so, and after an email exchange and Zoom call to get acquainted, I hired her to coach me towards that goal of being a “vibrant, prosperous, inspirer.”  One of the first things she did was send me one of her books, “You, Unstuck.”   LOL I just had to laugh again!!!!

Now at the same time, knowing I had a decades-old negative relationship with sugar, I decided to work on my health and loving my body, especially my belly, which is now distended from not only my latest kidney transplant but all the damage I’ve done, particularly to my intestines, from all the sugar.  I decided part of this new healing path would be learning to breathe properly, changing my eating habits, strengthening my abdominals and using medications and supplements to heal my gut.

And then, I reached out to a young woman I was coaching because once she mentioned her mom, Jennie, did breathing coaching.  And in our first breathing meeting, Jennie was quickly aware of my issues around negative body image and lack of self-love.  So not only is she teaching me excellent breathing techniques, she also stepped right in to sharing ways for loving my belly.

And then, I happened upon a Joe Dispenza video on YouTube where he talked about, how, in his retreats, they conduct gratitude meditations multiple times per day and how he ultimately has seen participants experience dramatic physical changes simply from that practice!

So now, in addition to the mantras and exercises I started, I have started putting gratitude meditations into my daily routine.

And then, Henry got a notification at work (HayHouse Publications) about a new Jill Bolte Taylor video they’d produced, which we watched.  She’s always been such an inspiration to me as a result of her TED Talk, My Stroke of Insight, and how she was able to tap into the power of the right side of her brain as the left was traumatized by the stroke which made her famous.   The expansive love she felt while her left brain was shutting down was incredible.  And I was reminded of the 8 years it took her to recover from the stroke she had and recognized, it’d taken me almost 5 decades to get to where I am now from early trauma and eating sugar.  Healing my body will likely be long haul and she’s a shining example for me of love, inspiration and tenacity.

And then, Henry looked into the interviewer from the Jill Bolte Taylor video only to discover she’d written and directed the documentary, Heal.  I was delighted to find another resource and reminder of how powerful our bodies are and about the myriad ways of healing beyond conventional medical options.

And then, earlier successful experiences with EFT tapping and knowing it could certainly help me with my sugar addiction, led me to do a YouTube search for “EFT tapping for sugar,” one Monday, and I went with the first video.  It was exactly what I was looking for and it worked immediately – suddenly no sugar craving!  Well, for a day anyway.  After doing several of her tapping videos that week, I reached out to Giulia Halkier, set up an appointment to chat with her and am now enrolled in her 12-week program on body image and eliminating sugar addiction, which she promises will be transformative for me!

And then, last week, I got an email for Oprah and Deepak’s meditation series – “Getting Unstuck” that started on 3/17/21

And now…

I’ve been feeling super weird all week about writing this and sharing my philosophies.  I felt guilty for having so much work for me, when I know so many with hardships. I was stuck and I was so stuck I couldn’t even see it!  It wasn’t until my coaching practice session this morning that it was pointed out to me, that I’m stuck!  LOL, just recognizing that I was feeling awkward about my writing should have been a sign for me to respond to.

So, in the end, I’ve shared all these “and then” moments to inspire YOU.  To bring awareness of how putting a focus towards a goal in the way of an intention or manifestation will lead to steps in the right direction.

I set a big intention in January, of being a vibrant, prosperous, inspirer.  But I also knew I had some blockages that would likely get me to stop myself or get led down a wrong path.  So, then I set another intention, to find those blockages and heal them so I could move past them.

I sought and searched and listened and acted.  And now here I am with a plan for getting past my inability to see my future self, my lack of self-love and my sugar addiction.  Oh and recognizing when I’m stuck in my writing!!!  And I’ll bet there are plenty more.

Set your intention by sharing it with The Universe.  Keep your eyes open.  Listen.  And act.  And watch how it works!!!

Or, in the words of Neale Donald Walsch, from his book, “Conversations with God,”

I have heard the crying of your heart. I have seen the searching of your soul. I know how deeply you have desired the Truth. in pain have you called out for it, and in joy. Unendingly have you beseeched Me. Show Myself. Explain Myself. Reveal Myself.

I am doing so here, in terms so plain, you cannot misunderstand. in language so simple, you cannot be confused. In vocabulary so common, you cannot get lost in the verbiage.

So go ahead now. Ask Me anything. Anything. I will contrive to bring you the answer. The whole universe will I use to do this. So be on the lookout; this book is far from My only tool. You may ask a question, then put this book down. But watch.


The words to the next song you hear. The information in the next article you read. The story line of the next movie you watch. The chance utterance of the next person you meet. Or the whisper of the next river, the next ocean, the next breeze that caresses your ear–all these devices are Mine; all these avenues are open to Me. I will speak to you if you will listen. I will come to you if you will invite Me. I will show you then that I have always been there.

All ways.

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